wondering...

assalamualaikum n hello there...

being inside the room without talking to somebody make me feel like i'm all alone inside here.. sometimes i almost forget that there are still somebody here... all of the lonely time make me wonder something... like usual i always got LILSOMETHING in mind every time... i always like wanting to keep it there... sometimes it's not good either.. keeping all for youself then you juz like stress out alone.. you know..

the thing i'm wondering this time not only this time but almost always is that.. what are my friend think about me.. what kind of friend i am to them.. do they like me or they dont or they do they need me or dont or do they just need me for certain time so they decided to juz keep me so that they have me when the time come.. and what kind of friend i am to them.. am i just monday to friday kind of friend or am i thier best friend like all time...?????

throughout my life i barely had a friend i mean like that true friend that stick around with u from school till now.. since i'm not that kind of stand out and popular and stuff.. i'm kind of quite and doing my own thing and hard to had a conversation with bcoz i'm kind of not speak to the person that i dont know untill they talk to me and i will be ok once i'm use to them.. i guess that's why i dont have much friend.. people dont know me..

i'm kind of jlez when i saw or heard story of friendship of guys.. once they are friend they just stick to that friendship till they die.. starting with just 2 of them then add and add and become big friend.. like a family.. always be with you no matter what.. no matter time.. and no matter what problem you have.. you cry they cry or cool you down and support you and stuff.. whenever you need them.. just call and they will be there.. well frankly i dont have all that.. i barely had anybody with me when i really need one.. yeah i understand.. it's hard to find a friend to cry then a friend to laugh with.. hmmm..

it's just that LILSOMETHING i had in mind.. that's all for now i think...
till then.. daaa

lilsomething said: still waiting for such thing to happen.. still save some hope on that :)