IN MY DEEPEST PAIN

assalamualaikum n hello there..

quite stress out rite now... n sad more... who am i actually to them.. if only they know, what we are going through.. but i'ts not like they don't even notice it.. stop pretending... i could not even imagine what is it going to be when HE is gone.. should we beg for help.. cant they juz understand our situation..we did not even hope or ask for this things to happen.. they dont even care.... who else we need when we are in trouble... but if they dont even bother, who else we can hope for... treat us like we are just some pathetic person begging them for help.. i can't stand looking at them it make me sick... such a liar, pretender, drama king and queen.. what so ever.... i am sick and tired of all this...i dont even feel like i have a ------... i rather not have one than having one like them...

sory i just need to let go what is kept inside.. i know i'ts not right what i did.. i juz can't keep it anymre.. or else i will lost my sense n strt doing smthing crzy..

ma, abh.. i luv u guys so much... i wish i could help... forgive me...