SOMETIMES....

Sometimes all you can give is love
Sometimes all you have is not enough

Sometimes life is like a dream
Sometimes dreams aren’t what they seem

Sometimes laughter can heal your heart
Sometimes it’s laughter that breaks it apart

Sometimes the world goes faster than you can go
Sometimes even fast is still too slow

Sometimes going home is the only thing on your mind
Sometimes home is the only place you can’t find

Sometimes you are too tired to sleep
Sometimes you are too sad to weep

Sometimes freedom holds you back
Sometimes a wedding dress is black

Sometimes loneliness is what you need
Sometimes there’s a harvest without a seed

Sometimes darkness can be too bright
Sometimes rain gives you delight

Sometimes you think you understand
Sometimes you know you really can’t

Sometimes what sets you free are restrictions
Sometimes what makes most sense are contradictions

IT ENDS HERE...

assalamualaikum n hello there...

honest truth or comforting lies ? I DO HOPE IT'S A LIE..

something that i need to let it go.. i dont know if i should have that feeling.. it just did happen.. now i realise that i have to let you go.. it hurt really.. i dont want it to end here n just like that.. you mean something to me.. but i know you dont belong to me.. i hope you are happy.. and sorry if i have to say i should end it here.. i'm afraid i cant control myself.. and i think its best for you and me.. though its hard but i have to try.. it cant be helped.. i know they would not understand.. its complicated u and me.. i just hope that i'm wrong.. but i heard it from you.. i dont want to lose you though you said we're still friend but i know things are going to change.. it would not be the same as it is.. i can feel it already.. it's happening now.. you would not realize it.. you've got her.. you would not be needing me.. FAREWELL my friend.. i'm sorry it have to ends here.. thanks for all.. thanks for being with me.. thanks for all the memory that you gave me.. it does mean a lot to me.. will not ever forget you... wishing you all the best now.. take care of yourself.. it's gonna be very different and empty without you.. it's ok.. i know you are fine without me.. cant hold the tears from falling..i have to be strong.. have to realize its just a matter of time before it happen.. i'm just not ready yet for this.. but it just did happen.. theres nothing i can do.. juz remember that i'm happy whenever you are.... THIS IS WHERE I SAY FAREWELL...

Crying is how your body speaks when your mouth can’t explain the pain

‎"Happiness lies for those who cry and those who hurt, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives."

SESI MUHASABAH DIRI AKA GOSSIP

assalamualaikum n hello there

long time no cee.. hehe actually i'm quite buzy + finding idea on what to write inside here.. that's why it have been quite some time.. so 4 today tengah2 malam ni.. (actually da pagi pon) i would like to share with all of you about ap yang me and my rmmte merepek.. asalnya nk stdy la ni but bcoz the topic that we are stdying is so damn boring finally we ended up with sesi muhasabah diri aka gossip.. why did i say so.. because we start to chit chatting from A to Z.. from family to friend to world back again to family and friend and ourself... so fun chit chatting untill we didnt realise that its already 4.50 a.m haha.. crazy the both of us.. stay up juz for chit chat and gossip.. but i feel relieved bcoz i can shre and listen to story rather than continue reading that damn bored thing.. CREDIT for her... haha.. and now all i know is that both of us are already in front of our lappy.. fcebooking + blogging.. haha.. another day is wasted like we are not sitting for the exam.. oh well i guess i need a break..(pdahal dari pagi lg mnghadap muka buku}.. seriously its been a long time since i didnt have such conversation.. well i cant wait to go home.. so many plan.. so many things to do.. really my heart is already at home.. miss my fwend.. family.. my room.. the food.. ooohhhh i can say no more.. but before that i have to face the exam which is just around the corner.. am i ready?? please dont ask.. you know the answer already dont you.. of corse not.. (ingt 50-50}.. chaiyok.. its been days i've been acting like an owl.. overninght stdying.. sleep at 7 am and woke up again at 1 or for yesterday cases 2 pm.. crazy me.. ohh well its a habit since i am going to sit for my pmr.. just cant get rid of it.. wish me luck for my exam ok.. to my gurlz dont forget our deal.. {sape dapat pointer tinggi and rendah kne brgabung and blnje yang lain ok}.. well i guess thats all for now.. till then... daaa...

MOOD SWING....

assalamualaikum & hello there the topic for today is mood swing.. this is what somebody told me that recently i becaming a very tempered person.. though i am a tempered persoh he says that it becoming worst.. yea... i admit that.. i'ts out of my control.. i'm sorry.. it's juist that so many things happen n too many things i've been thinking + scared of FINAL EXAMS = mood swing or he can say that my tempered is getting worst for him... i will try to control it and i'm sorry... nothing have to do with you seriously...

unlucky ME

assalamualaikum n hello there it's been quite some time n the quite some time not just some past time.. its kind of a bad days for me.. :( the big thing is that it all happen all of sudden and all at a time.. asgnment + asgnment + test + lost asgnment + reject asgnment + netball gme (all burden on me) = DRIVING ME CRAZY... guess what i've been working all day on the asgnment that is rejected and the asgnment that i received at the very last minute time all night and i slept at 7 a.m and woke up at 10 a.m continue the work and GUESS WHAT all of sudden all of my hard job GONE.... and by that time it is already 1.00p.m and i am not even ready to go to class and i am not even read anything for the test at 2p.m, STOP!!!!!!!!! AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CALM DOWN...(that just what i said to myself at that time)... tears juz waiting 2 fall down by that time... and my head juz like it want to burst BOOOOOOOMMMMMM!!!!!!! DEAD!!!!!!! one step at a time... luckly i have save the old asgnmnt that is rejected n i edited it back and luckly i remember what i did and where i found it.. juz left some of minor things that i gave to my fwend to complete it and send it.. at the end of the day i managed 2 handle the problem.. so the moral of the story is try to calm down when you are facing such a problem.. nothing can be settled when you start panicking... juz like me... muahahahaha... after this whole ugly things... i finally decided to treat myself... at the same time my fwen juz ask me and my gurlz to go and eat mcd 'prosperities'.... i think that it is the time where i finally get the chance to treat myself after what happend.. and trust me its not over yet.. after waiting for about 1 hour to get the "prosperety"... jeng jeng jeng..... me and fina : "prosperity burger 2 set" cashier mcd : " sorry da HABIS " me and fina : " HUH!!!!!!" FINALLY we both juz ordered double cheese burger for dinner i guess... oh well that's the end of the story... we i got back i juz wasting my time and try to released the tensed... so i play game and watch movie untill 9 then i go to bath... muahahahaha.. pity me for having such day...

HANGOUT.....

assalamualaikum n helloooo there... today as "USUAL".. well i can say as usual bcoz its getting like some kind of habit u know.. FRIDAY is kind of gonna be my hangout day with my fwend. After attending a boring n horror class of fizik asas, me n my frend of coz we eat first then head straight ahead to... well where else we are going to go other than 1B(1BORNEO)..GUESS WHAT.. movie again.. i'm quite lcky to find fwend that share the same interest as i have.. trust me it's look like i am addicted with it again.. yes i'm running out of budget but it's student price n there are a lot of great movies coming n 1B just like next to my campus n i dont know, it's just too hard to resist(alasan...) anyway we had so much fun..trying out 'TUTTI FRUTTI' sabah version.. haha.. i just like craving for more bcoz it is so damn delicious..(jgn iqa control budget).. while waiting for movie time we go for window shopping.. thinking or finding idea what to give on HIS birthday n our anniversary..(still thinking).. i'm thinking of buying perfume bcoz that's what i heard from him that he wanted to buy.. here are some of the choice that we made..

but i just smell the dunhill n not the other one coz there is no sample at that time.. i also think about getting HIM a shirt.. still in a dilemma.. after wondering around finding my fwend's brother present we just like going into the bookstore.. i just have this new interest or 'crush' with this book "Diary of A Wimpy Kid". Before this i already bought one.. and it is quite interesting that make me buy another one.. it is weird of me coz the final exam is just around the corner and instead of studying i am wasting my time for movie n novel n stuff.. well it's me.. doing last minute job.. when will i stop doing it.. who knows..

well i think that's all for now.. need 2 do some other work.. till then.. daaaaaaaaa....

IN MY DEEPEST PAIN

assalamualaikum n hello there..

quite stress out rite now... n sad more... who am i actually to them.. if only they know, what we are going through.. but i'ts not like they don't even notice it.. stop pretending... i could not even imagine what is it going to be when HE is gone.. should we beg for help.. cant they juz understand our situation..we did not even hope or ask for this things to happen.. they dont even care.... who else we need when we are in trouble... but if they dont even bother, who else we can hope for... treat us like we are just some pathetic person begging them for help.. i can't stand looking at them it make me sick... such a liar, pretender, drama king and queen.. what so ever.... i am sick and tired of all this...i dont even feel like i have a ------... i rather not have one than having one like them...

sory i just need to let go what is kept inside.. i know i'ts not right what i did.. i juz can't keep it anymre.. or else i will lost my sense n strt doing smthing crzy..

ma, abh.. i luv u guys so much... i wish i could help... forgive me...

song

I’ve waited a hundred years.. but i’d wait a miliion more for u.

Nothing prepared me for  the privilage of being yours

If i had only felt the warmth within your touch,

If i had only seen how u smile when u blush,

Or how u curl your lips when u concentrate enough,

I would have known what i was living for,

What  i’ve been living for.

Your love is my turning page,

Only the sweetest words remain,

Every kiss is a curseive line, every touch is a redifining phrase,

I surrender who i’ve been for who u are,

Nothings make me stronger than ur fragile heart,

If i had only feels how it fels to be yours,

I’ve would have known,

What i’ve been living for all along,

What i’ve been living for,

We’re tethered to the story we must tell,

When i saw u, well i knew we tell it well,

With the whisper, we will tame the vicious scenes,

Like a feather bringing kingdom to their knees,

(well every time i listen to this song like seriously I MISS HIM... :( i wanna go home...)

BREAKING DAWN.....

Assalamualaikum n hello there...

finally... i got the chance to see my fav muvieee... i had so much fun today... although i am all alone but that's not a problem to me.. what i know is i really enjoy myself.. it will be much better if he is here... this movie remind me of  him.. i do really miss him.. (lyn jiwang jap)..well i cant wait to see the ending of this story....

edward trsngtla hnsm.. x lpa jacob n the latest seth...haaaa hmsmnya.. so romantic  i can watch this over n over again...

till then..
daaaaa....

MOOOODDDDD!!!!!!!!!

hai n hello there.... not forgetting assalamualaikum....

i had a question.. have u ever feel like u don't really have the mood to start ur day or u don't have the mood to stdy... or u just don't have the mood to do anything at all?? this is the problem 4 the people like me.. we r affected with this mood thing.. muahaha... why?? i will gave u some reasons why..

  1. maybe because u got bad result in your exam and the feeling just carried on
  2. maybe because we have financial problem
  3. maybe we had a fight with our parents
  4. maybe we had a fight with our boyfriend
  5. maybe we had misunderstanding with our friends
  6. or maybe we just felt bored because doing the routine thing in our life over n over again..

yaa... i know.. me myself is a kind of a person who easily get affected with these reasons.. just can't help it.. especially for the 1st reasons. i easily will felt down n moody n i will start think that i'm stupid, the result was out of my expactation, i must be really careless n maybe i had no future.. (trok kn aku nihh). cepat sangat nk ase down la.. x de smangat.. akibatnya banyak lagi keja lain yg trgen dala akibat dari mlayan mood anda hahaha... (padan muke aku).. i need to find something that will motivate me.. i wish i know what is it.. so for the conclusion jgn sesekali menjadikan mood anda sebagai sesuatu yg boleh mempngaruhi hdup anda... lebih bnyak kburukannya daripada kebaikan.. trust me..aku tgh menanggung akibatnya nihh.. if u are like me.. this is what we should do.. try to find things that will motivated u back or try not to think of it.. try to thnk of something else that will make u happy or even find ur frnds chit chat with them so that u will forget about ur problem for a moment n maybe share ur problem so that u won't fill too burned n stress.. ok.. till then.... daaaa...

asemen!!! go away

arrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!!!
i'm surrounded by assignment n i thnk i'm going crazy...
i think like daaa... it's my frst things i shre on my blog and i strt complaining...
nahhh.. juz wnt 2 shre with u guys the moral of my story.. i bet most of the student is like me though.. we juz like doing job last minute...haha.. ntah bila la nk sdar dr skola smpai da msuk u still the same.. ssh kn nak ubh bnda yg da trbiasa nih.. can smbdy juz show me how... o well i guest i have to stay all night then..